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When I saw her I thought “that looks a lot like the girl in the picture.” Then I picked up my bag, glanced around the greyhound bus station, edged away from the creepy looking guy who was trying to talk to me, and walked out the door.

When I walked up to her, I knew it was her, and this feeling of butterflies jumped into my stomach, my heart leapt into my throat, and when she finally recognized me, my clit started to pound at the same time that I couldn’t catch my breath.

I was shocked at that reaction, but hugged her anyway, and followed her to the bus to her house, or so I assumed.

Instead we wound up at the mall where her mother worked and I got to meet her mom. She seemed nice, though a little hesitant.

We wandered the mall for hours, 3 I think, we talked and laughed and browsed and it was just like having a piece of home right there. She was amazing. And I was as comfortable as I could be given my immediate attraction to her. So I tried to tell her but the words wouldn’t quite come out. I kept thinking it was just me, and being so I would have to hide it. I had to take little moments just to breathe because the attraction was looming over me, and blooming inside me every time she smiled, everytime she was close, so close that I could smell whatever mixture of things make up her scent, everytime I starred into those Hazel Green eyes and everytime she spoke.

We went to her house, finally, and I got to see the small place she calls home. I got to see her room, which, honestly, is wonderful. Then we prepared the hide-a-bed in the living room, presumably only for me, and layed down to watch Season 2 of Buffy. We talked and laughed and just shared moments. I commented in the way I alwasy do, and we became tired, but not tired enough to sleep. We stayed up until 7am and then slept for a total of two hours.

The next day we froze trying to find our way around the next town over so that we could eat out, but even as we froze I found myself having a lot of fun. I was struggling all day with the urge to kiss her. We got lost and her mom had to come get us. I bought food at a grocery store. We went to her home. I called my sister to make sure she knew I was safe. We watched Love Actually… we watched more Buffy… We talked and laughed and talked some more. We enjoyed each other’s company. I watched her get sleepy. I watched her lay her head down and close her eyes, though she was not asleep. I struggled with wanting her. It was 1am ish when I fell asleep, in the midst of getting up the courage to ask her if I could kiss her.

The next day our plans to see a movie fell through and we hung around her house watching a couple of Buffy episodes from various seasons and she put together most of a 1000 piece puzzle on the floor after we had put the hide-a-bed away. I packed my things up at various points. I starred at her more than was probably comfortable for anyone to be starred at. And then her mom gave me a ride to the greyhound bus station. I sat in the back seat, starring at her reflection in the side view mirror on the right side of the car. We stopped at some mall so her mom could smoke a cigarette (oh yes, her mother smokes). We sat in the car kind of talking and kind of not. More like a silence of thoughts. I was thinking “i love you and I’m gonna miss you like crazy.” Then we got to the station. Her and her mom saw me inside, then her mom left, after hugging me, she stayed for a few more minutes before we kind of hugged goodbye. I wanted to hug harder, longer, anything just to convey how much we were already in different states again..I wanted to run after her as she went through the door. I wanted to grab her and take her with me… I wanted…I wanted…

I wanted the world in three days

I wanted to always see your face,

when the sun breaks through,

the window in the morning misty dew,

when the sky is full of clouds,

and the rain is coming down,

when the days are never ending,

when all my will just bends.

I wanted to look to you,

and know that love holds true,

no matter what the kind,

no matter who it finds,

no matter if the sun shines.