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I love you, you make the best of me,
I hate you, you make the worst of me
You with your need to care about
Some heartless-fucking-ex-bitch who ripped you apart,
Rampaged your confidence, and feels no remorse.
Me, who suffers because I can’t be enough…
Even after so long…
Me, whose confusion causes an unextinguishable blaze
On which rage is fueled.
There is not enough alcohol….
There are not enough pills…
There are never enough razors….
To kill the hatred and anger.
I live each day with your need
Attempting to disregard my own anxiety…tears…
Until last night….
You asked and I broke the silence…
Told you the truth though I did not want to…
With you knowing how hard that is…
And I was left in isolation and darkness.
I was overcome with anger.
I battled it for hours until I lost.
Lost my will to the fury.
I took it out upon myself, the room, the walls.
Shattered glass and shattered hearts.
Broken skin and tears.
Wrath plays very unkindly…
And I heard you call my name…
But you couldn’t get in because I had
Thrown a chair against the door and it was
Wedged tightly.
But I was fading already and was too weak.
As you cried out, I heard you…
And I didn’t care whether I lived or died.
I love you too much.
I love you so much that the pain inside
Me kills me….