2005
Internet meetings can become more.
My journey into the world of internet dating began as a necessity.
I live in rural Georgia. A small town with no discernible lesbians.
The few I did see were so obviously closeted. They walked with their
heads down, a posture of defiance, a look of neglect and pain.
I opted to look elsewhere and was appalled at the mean spirited
replies sent by some members of mailing lists.
I ventured out and started my own.
Not necessarily expecting to find love, lust or a
long term commitment. Simply expecting to connect
with women like me. It was a lovely success.
Friends from this experience gathered
in my home periodically.
Against my better judgement I did meet a woman who I began
instant messaging, we then began calling each other
several times a day. Our phone bills were outrageous.
I thought I was falling in love.
She assured me she was just as interested.
After several months of not meeting. I bought her a plane ticket.
As a single parent, this was a great financial hardship.
I just knew it would all be worth it when we fell in love.
She never got on the plane. Excuses were varied and convoluted.
I gave up and went back to my original rule of not becoming
involved with my members.
A gathering the following year led me to break that rule again.
Jan and I had been emailing off the list for some time.
She was barely out, looking for friends.
I became one. She says she cared long before meeting me.
I maintain I had no clue in that regard.
At our first meeting I knew in an instant, she was my mate.
The women I had always been attracted to came to life
in her body, her walk, her smile.
She had the goodness and the loving soul I longed for.
We spent that weekend flirting, sneaking kisses and more.
We have been together for 6 years now.
She moved from South Carolina to Georgia to live here with me.
It was the finest rule I ever broke.
It is my firm belief that you need to meet before
you speak of love in a true sense.
The reality is, you may hate the way she chews or laughs.
She may have unappetising personal habits.
All these may be cute and endearing in the beginning
and become the very reasons why you go absolutely
nuts years later.
Listening to your mind, your gut is required.
Much more so than your desire.
On a personal note… This is my first posting here.
Thank you for welcoming me to this forum.
Annie B
