thelesbianlifestyle.com

Quite literally as I came to my computer this morning.
The following Yahoo IM message appeared as
the marine aquarium screen saver faded away.

It said, “you ever occasionally share a man ?”
‘Jasoninatlanta08′

In about three seconds my first thoughts were
1. That I really need to shut that down.
I have exactly two people on my IM list.
It’s not like I spend time chatting.
Why do I even have that program?

And 2. Uh, no Jason
and I grew up about a million years ago too,
thanks anyway.

I wondered about my wisdom in posting a revealing bio
when I initially downloaded yahoo IM.
It states that I am a partnered, lesbian, mom etc…
I decided I could handle the occasional come on by a man.

This morning I was refreshed from six,
yes folks, six! Hours of uninterrupted sleep.
(prednisone was banished in favor of life)

I laughed and groaned a little at his attempt.
Yesterday, the sleep deprived me may have replied
in a negative manner.
Today I just think he’s a lonely jerk.

Opening my email account brought more surprises.
A reply to a blog post.
A link to a story of one mans testimony.

“Stephen Bennett is a FORMER homosexual who is happily
married since 1993 to his beautiful wife Irene.”
His website included assurances that,
“have no fear, you can be free of this.”

And then these words, which threatened
to take away my lightened mood,
He describes his homosexual days as his.

“Descent into Darkness”.

And still he rambles on…
“In the fall of 1981, as an 18 year old aspiring
artist with a dream, and a freshman at one of
New York’s art schools, I reached one of the
darkest periods in my life. On a cold rainy night,
far away from home I acted out on feelings
I had throughout my entire childhood and teen years -
I had my first homosexual encounter
with another student…”

(major snip, yawn, sigh…speak to me Stephen..
try, try hard to change me.)

“Well, in that summer of 1991 God opened my eyes to the
truth and perverseness of the homosexual lifestyle”

Oh joy…it’s a fricking miracle !
My finger hovers on the delete key, yet…
I just have to finish reading.
I am cruel to myself in that way.

“Today life is wonderful -
I am free, and it is all because of
Jesus Christ…You may be, know or live
with a homosexual, a drug addict, or an alcoholic.
Understand - God loves the sinner
- He just hates the sin.”

I could have gone all day without being
lumped with drug addicts and alcoholics.

Stephen,
This is not a lifestyle. It is my life.
It isn’t a choice for me, glad it was for you.
Guess what? You were just playing at being gay.
You never were, either that or you are living so far
in denial you will never see the light of day.

So anyway… Jason on Yahoo IM struck out,
But hey, if you hear I am now a ministers wife.
Blame it on Stephen Bennett.

(No, I’m not giving you the link to his website.
It’s bad enough that I clicked on it.)