2005
The GoldStar Dyke
I was five when I knew I liked girls. At the age of 20 I was in a relationship and living with a woman who was still married. Christmas of that year I came out to my family. My Mom wanted to know why I wasn’t home for Christmas Eve. I had to explain to her that my girlfriend’s family was important too. My sexuality has never been an issue for anyone in my family since. At the age of 24 I spilt up with said married woman and by that time the divorce was long over. I moved back in with my family and realized that I didn’t have one “lesbian” friend to speak of.
That year I started a small AOL group to which I dubbed, Suburban Lesbians of Michigan. That original group of a dozen or so women turned into over a thousand members after two years. We established our own web site, and it lead to my making a close nit group of lesbian friends. I discovered a passion within myself to bring people together. I didn’t want anyone to have to feel as out of touch as I did. After over two years of running the organization I had to stop. I lost the passion, and no longer could deal with the demands that such a large organization caused. To date it is both my biggest personal success and failure.
At the age of 27 I have a very stressful IT job. I work more hours than I get paid for, but I tell myself it’s what I get for not finishing college. I love to write and always have. I dabble in poetry and blog about my thoughts when the time is available. I work for the weekend like so many. The time I spend with friends is invaluable to me. I am single, I fear sometimes that I always will be. I have also accepted that there are many things that I have to work on before I am ready to fall back into a committed relationship. I’ll let fate take care of the rest.
People have asked why I named this blog The Lesbian Lifestyle. I can tell you that I don’t think one’s sexuality is a choice, but I can also tell you that there are aspects of my life that would not exist if I weren’t a lesbian. For me this blog is about sharing stories. It is a reflection of amazing women throughout the world that just so happen to be lesbian. And yet, it is all about the fact that they are lesbians. Perhaps it was all just another gesture to allow myself to know that I’m not alone. Either way I’m glad TLL is here and I love reading the stories. It is one success that I refuse to ever call a failure.
