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In honor of “ Coming Out Day”………..

Almost two years ago something happened to me that changed my life forever. You know I fell in love before the kiss.

My mind had been racing for a couple of weeks now and I subpoenaed my only Lesbian friend at the time. “Jay” (we are going to call her “Jay”, privacy I suppose). Being the wonderful friend she is, J promptly met me at the park with a six-pack. “ Jay, there is this girl…”, I said. Before I could finish, she interrupted with “did you kiss her”. Leave it to J to get to the point especially when it comes to kissing girls.

She knew who it was right away; I guess it was dead giveaway. “Al” (that privacy thing again) was the only person who I was with or talked about for the past 2 months even after I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years. Al this, Al that, I am sure you understand how see-through I become.

I had explained to Jay the events that took place the past two months, and my goal was to figure out if she liked girls. I could care less if she was a lesbian I just wanted to know if she like girls. Jay’s advice, “kiss her”. “No way, never”, I exclaimed. “You don’t understand I know nothing about kissing girls. I do not want to piss her off. I do not want to loose her as a friend.” I continued to explain all my fears. Jay repeated, “Kiss her”.

Jay knew right away my explanation of our growing friendship were clear signs of a soon approaching girl on girl make out session. My problem was I truly loved her and there is no way I would impose my self on her. Especially since, I have NEVER kissed a girl before. Yes, every lesbian I have came a crossed in my short 26 years of life knew I was in the family except me, even the scary assistant soccer coach that used to fallow me everywhere, it was creepy and my friends though it was weird.

Ok, ladies those scary butch type lesbian can really frighten a 16 year old girl. My early experiences as a growing child with the “lesbian culture” were not all that positive, and It was not just the creepy coach that did it. I guess for me it was best I discovered the “dark side” a crossed the country from my family and the wee town I grew up in.

The kiss, the kiss I know your just dieing to get to the good stuff. I told Jay that if Al wanted to kiss me than she would. There is no way I was about to take that risk. Therefore, when I left Jay that day I had concluded I wanted Al to kiss me, it was all up to her. Moreover, if she kissed me I did not have to worry about weather or not she liked girls. Without her knowing it, it was all up to her.

It happened, she kissed me a few nights later when we crawled into bed for the night. Yes, this is one of the clear flashing signs she liked me. Al slept in my bed almost every night after we meet at are birthday party. I felt her lean into me, my heart was beating like a humming birds wings. I felt I had been waiting a lifetime for her kiss. It was the sweetest breath of air I have ever tasted. This moment changed my life forever.

And, that ladies was just the kiss. Do you want more???

And, that ladies was just the kiss. Do you want more???

Karen can be reached at Kgarrett4@excite.com