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I’m living on the south shore of Montreal, QC, Canada… for as long as I can remember (might as well say all my life…) I knew something was wrong… I felt different, I felt pain, but just couldn’t put my finger on what was causing it…

some people say that if you don’t have a bf by the time you’re 17-18 or so you should question yourself because you’re most likely a lesbian… I never gave much truth to that… I just thought I was picky… thought I was waiting for my prince charming…around that age a cousin of mine committed suicide when she realized that she was a lesbian… and well living in a small town in the middle of nowhere she didn’t see any other options… back then it threw me to the ground… and I did question myself as to whether or not I was gay as well… but at that time (I was 17 I think) I was satisfied with “not that I know of”. but I sworn to myself to always take the defense of gays and lesbians no matter what in honour of my cousin… a couple of years later a cousin whom I’ve always considered a brother came out. which brought the two of us even closer. which is pretty much when I started wondering what I’d do if I could only be truly happy with a woman… when I came to the conclusion that I didn’t care, that as long as I’d be happy with whoever that might be, I’d just go for it… this is when the pain stopped… I had finally figured out why I felt so much pain without knowing why for so long… so I came out to my folks first cause I wanted them to get used to it at the same time I was getting used to it as well… they’re just the most supportive family ever they’re exceeding the most optimistic expectations I could ever have… and I thank them for that every day.

so I guess that makes my story pretty boring… I’ve never kissed nor dated a guy my entire life… I kissed a girl for the first time when I was ehhh 24… and I came out shortly after… and now I’m turning 28 in a couple of days… lol so a pretty uneventful life huh? but it’s just how it happened for me… and I wouldn’t change it at all (well besides being able to prevent my cousin’s suicide so she could be with me and my other cousin and see how happy we are even if we’re gay and totally out…)

I’m not the pro gay type who’s making her life all and only about being gay… but I don’t hide it either… I’m more of a what you see is what you get kinda gal, a straight forward kinda person… so I always try to show people around me that being gay doesn’t make me any different, it doesn’t make me scream “discrimination” whenever someone makes a joke about gays… and I think my friends like that about me. friends and coworkers alike, I pick on them for being straight, they pick on me for being gay, it’s just all friendly… they know the difference between making friendly jokes or comments or being downright mean and so do I.

I guess it’s very important for me to show people I’m not different than anyone else. I’m human, I have a family, I have friends, I have a job, and I sometimes do have a partner… lol although not currently… *shrugs* but since I have a pretty good sense of humor, I try to use it to my advantage (i.e. to prove people wrong on various gay stereotypes) as often as possible.

I can’t quite remember how I found this blog… I think it was through a post on live journal… but my memory is currently shiiiit cause of health problems (I will spare you the details) but it’s mainly why I don’t post often lately, I’m kinda busy trying to get to the bottom of it and finally heal… I love this place cause we all have different stories, different paths of life but we all connect on one or more levels, being women, loving women (bisexual women included, even straight women cause we all know how even straight women relate to other women and have such a strong bond compared to men… in my opinion anyways…)

so that’s pretty much me in a nutshell