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I am a believer in love and even if it doesn’t work out the way we want or expect, the experience of it lasts a lifetime. I think every woman I’ve been with, I somehow met over the computer, except for the first one. She is a story all on her own. My current gf is someone I met online through planetout.com. Everyone says, while they are in love, how they are sure that person is THE ONE. I had become skeptical up til then, I just wanted someone for right now. Here is my cast of characters(hmm should I change the names or not…) guess I should, for now….

Samantha: someone I met on IRC back in the early 90s when I was just learning about the internet and it wasn’t the big thing yet. She was a MTF from Texas with a strong personality, one might say controlling. We had an online love affair and then she came to meet me, stayed 3 days and left, saying I wasn’t who she expected. I fell hard for her, though it seems strange to me. She was bipolar/manic depressive. Later on, because I could not get over her, we ended up being friends and living together, platonically….but that controlling thing showed me the real deal….

Mandy(a.k.a Spiderwoman in my blog): I foolishly stepped into a steaming pile of regret with that one. Two weeks after talking and meeting her in person, I moved in with her, along with my daughter. I believe to this day she was a borderline personality. Very controlling also…I changed my whole personality with her. I could only work when she wanted, talk to only her and she wanted me to hand over my money to her. It’s hard for me to believe now. She was very butch and very out and it was difficult for my daughter, as M locked my daughter outside in her underwear….that was it for me. Longest 3 months of my life!

Leslie: I met her on IRC also. I was living in Houston, not being able to find a job. But she and I had chatted while I still lived in Iowa before hand. So she called me out of the blue while in Houston and we talked for long long hours and fell in love over the phone. She offered to pay for my daughter and I to stay with her in Wyoming. I will always credit her for bringing me there. We had not even met in person yet and here I was moving in with her. Neither one of us could afford to make a trip, so we took a chance. I stayed with her for almost a year, but I learned not long after I moved in that she liked to drink…..alot. And she didn’t like a sexual relationship, unless she was drinking…oh yes, and “I’m not gay….I just don’t like to label myself.” Out of all the women(excluding my current gf) she was the one I loved for years after I left. I’d hoped for so long that we would get back together, even though I knew she was bad for me. We had a fling about a year after I moved out…but to this day we are still very good friends and a part of me will always love her.

Mary: I met her on match.com. She was 12 years older than me, so I wasn’t so sure about this thing. She lived outside of Chicago but was planning on moving to Wyoming to be near her best friend and the kids(her friend’s kids). We had a long distance relationship until I moved to Cheyenne and then she moved to Cheyenne. We were “together” almost 3 years, but I knew that things would never last because we were too different…the age difference and damn that controlling nature I always seem to run into. She never wanted to live together. We would spend a night at each other’s house and then go home, or go to a movie or dinner. She got angry when I stopped by unannounced saying “well, now I have to stop what I am doing to entertain you. You are in my space.” Once when I didn’t ask her right away how her day was, she said, “Did you even know I bought a pair of boots today?”

Josie: I briefly met her a few times there in Cheyennne, meeting her online on match.com. Turns out she had a brief coffee date with my ex Mary. She was a recovering alcoholic but thought I was too needy, so it was never really a relationship.

Then I was moving back to Iowa looking for people to meet. Went on planetout and answered ads and placed ads. No one wrote me back except for Cindy. I believe she is THE ONE….life is peaceful, something I’ve never known and she accepts me for the crazy fun loving wild girl I am…and loves to laugh!

Oh yes, I forgot to mention the person named Darla I flew to Philly to see only to discover she was really Darrell. That’s not pretty in a nighty, believe me!

Ain’t life a kick in the pants?