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In 5 days I will be meeting my fiance’s parents. I am traveling with her to NC for her Spring break. For the past few days I have been having bad dreams about meeting them–yesterday in particular. First I dreamed that M and I got into our first fight and broke up. After waking up from that one, almost in tears, I went back to sleep. Then I had a horrible nightmare. I was at her parent’s house. She was gone somewhere and we (her parents and I) were supposed to meet her. Right when it was time to leave, they started telling me they didn’t like me and that I had to go home. Her mom didn’t like my short hair and her dad didn’t think I was the one for M. I woke up nearly in hysterics. That was the most horrible dream I’ve had in years! Why am I so nervous?

1) I’ve never met a “fiance’s” parents. Only girlfriends…and most of my girlfriends were friends first, so I knew their parents already.

2) In all of my relationships, after the parents found out about us, they forbade me from seeing their daughter.

3) My family doesn’t like M and I guess I am nervous that her parents won’t like me and we’ll have both families against us.

4) She’s only recently come out and has never introduced a girlfriend to her parents. I’m her first actual girlfriend.

So I have a lot of pressure on me. Of course, its pressure I put on myself. I shouldn’t worry, right? I should just be excited that I get to spend 10 days with her . Her parents have no reason to disapprove of me or our relationship. so far they seem really nice. Her mom sent M an email telling her to tell me not to worry about it. So really, I should shut up and quit stressing. It’s just so damn hard.