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I know I’m still young but none the less it seems like I came out a million and twelve years ago… I no longer remember what it was like to be “heterosexual”, nor do I remember what my “type” of guy was… but I do remember being 16, and feeling like being a lesbian was life changing… I felt so lost and confused… I felt like the world was against me and who I loved.

Its been almost 9 years now since I came out, I no longer wear rainbow jewelry on a regular basis, I don’t feel the need to broadcast my sexuality to everyone I meet. It is no longer WHO I am… now it is just a small part of what makes me ME!

Now my reasons for broadcasting, such as my rainbow bumper stickers, aren’t about attracting the cute butch girl or making sure everyone knows I’m a proud lesbian… Now they sit there for political reasons, now they are a testament to honoring diversity rather than advertising.

I wish I could pinpoint the change in my attitude towards the world in regards to my sexuality… I wish I knew what brought me from the flamboyant flaming teenager to the self assured and confident young queer woman… But alas here I am. and here is my point. I dont believe that coming out is an event… I believe it is a process… Something that comes one day at a time, not just coming to admit who you are but coming to terms with what that means in the broad spectrum.

So while it has been almost 9 years since I labeled myself I believe that I am still coming out, or rather coming into my own.