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                        I didn’t fall in love with a straight woman. I WAS the straight woman! I was 49, four years after a divorce from a 20 year marriage.

We had been friends for four years when 9/11 and my brother’s death made me lose my footing. She offered me regular massages to help with the grieving process.

Something I didn’t understand was happening in my body during those massages. The only thing I could point to was this amazing feeling that the bottoms of my feet kept opening and opening during the massage. We hugged and said I love you as friends….until……

I couldn’t wait for Christmas Day to pass because she was calling the next day. I hadn’t identified what was bubbling up inside of me, but something was. The call came and as we spoke, she said “There’s something I need to tell you. I have feelings for you.” Did I slam down the phone or run away? No! because I had feelings for her too.

And so we began. Because never in my life had I felt I was gay/lesbian, I told myself and my friends that I “fell in love with my friend who happens to be a woman”. But when we made love, I felt like I fit into my skin for the first time in my life!

Trying to process this shift in my world, I wrote a lot of poetry. After a few months, I accepted and proclaimed, “I am a lesbian!”

Sadly we split up after five delicious years. I am so looking forward to falling in love again — with a woman.

I don’t know why I didn’t know this about myself. I won’t even waste time thinking about it. I’m just enjoying the joy and wonder of my passionate attraction to women!

Jan