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OK… here’s the big thing that’s crazy. And that I just-so-happen to be “suffering” from… I mean, I’m enjoying it, but whatever…

The big thing? My body thinks I’m Preggers…as I have a bad back, bad knees, and cannot lay on my stomach when sleeping. Well, the last one isn’t really because of pain, it’s because my subconscious tells me not to do that. I mean, I know I’m not preggo, so don’t think I’m a total nut-job…

I read somewhere on the internet that pseudocyesis, or pseudopregnancy, is basically that. It’s when a woman has basically symptoms of pregnancy, except the actual fetus. Which really sucks, as the last ingredient is basically what makes you pregnant.

But whatever, basically, I am recognizing this fairly early on. I feel I am basically pregnant PHYSICALLY… but not, you know, mentally or whatnot.

But…

I think I was born to be a pseudo-pregnant mother, as I already have some risk factors:

1. Schizophrenia/or some sort of psychosis
2. Some form of sexual Abuse

Yeah, that’s me.

And I’m trying to piece together all these traits with my “pregnancy…” I mean, I’m trying to find answers for this false pregnancy. I’m trying to remember my abuse, which I have stuffed down so much I have forgotten it… I’m trying to find me.

I’m also trying to overcome the adversity that is my mental illness… no one is ever cured of a mental illness, really, but I’m sure I can find some loopholes in the rules somewhere. Hah.

Here are some symptoms you MAY be pseudo-preggo:

• Swelling or lactating of breasts.
• Growing of abdomen [yes, this ACTUALLY happens to people...]
• Feeling of fetal movements [This happens, too.]
• Labor pains

Now, women who have had children or attempted to before have a risk of this, also.

However, if you are absolutely convinced you are pregnant, but have been told by doctors that you aren’t this time, it may be a sign of schizophrenia, NOT pseudo-pregnancy.

However, I know I have pseudo-preggo because I’m actually feeling it, but I DO NOT THINK I ACTUALLY HAVE A BABY.

That simple. It’s all about the false belief in the “child.”

Now, yes, I have psychosis, but I know this is unrelated, as I really don’t believe I have a baby. It’s just my body responding to the desire to have a child.

Which, by the way, pseudo-pregnancy is CAUSED by an extreme desire for giving birth to a child.

SO… if you are suffering from pseudocyesis JUST KNOW IT IS NORMAL. YOU ARE NOT CRAZY.

You just are kind-hearted and love children… your body is just responding to that in a confusing way.

Feel free to ask your doctor or OB-GYN about this. Do NOT hesitate. And if you truly believe you have a baby and are suspicious you might have schizophrenia, feel free to ask a psychiatrist about this!!!

NEVER be embarrassed. We are women, strong, and together.

And this is a fight worth fighting, we can do it!