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It seems a running theme with me would be anger but really it’s not so, I just use TLL to vent when I am and I don’t really feel like blogging when I’m happy so sorry if my stuff bums you out but I know I’m not the only one out here to feel angry about certain things.

I figured it would just be easy to list them in numerical order then give explanations for each.

1. Suicide…. Yeah random if you are not me and my friends but we just had a close friend take her life last week and yesterday was the viewing. It’s sad, we all cried and now I’m just kind of filled up with this angry feeling of “why”. There was no explanation and though we should have paid more attention, none of us knew it was heading down that road. Sooooo here we are 1 less friend, a family one less daughter, sister, cousin and niece because of her selfishness.

2. the “new” look… Yes the sweat banded forearm, loose tie wearing with a wife beater and tore up jeans with ratty converse… I get it, you’re a dyke…. Is it really necessary to announce it with your horrible fashion sense? AND!!! can we please get rid of the wife beaters?!?!?! I thought for sure that fad would die out but it’s still going strong and I see girls wearing them that really shouldn’t be! I know that’s judgmental of me and truly I’m sorry but I don’t want to see a fat greasy man who doesn’t take care of himself walking around in a wife beater and I surely don’t want to see that on a woman. You’re gay…. it doesn’t mean you have to let yourself look like white trash. Again, have some class and represent our culture outside of the stereotype.

3. Bad friends… Or should I say old friends. The ones who used to be in your life. I had an incident with a long time friend. This girl was the officiant of our wedding, she was my maid of honor, I grew up with her, I’ve saved her ass more times than I can count and I considered her my sister. (16 year long friendship) She left us all for “new friends” and I can’t seem to let it go. I find myself going to her myspace page (which is set to private) just to look at her picture because I want to hate her. Just seeing her picture and fakeness keeps me in that angry mind set with her and I have a feeling that’s where I’ll be for a long time before I can just let it go.

Thanks for lending the ears… or eyes I guess.