2008
What a week…
This week has been very hectic and semi stressful. All week long, I have been trying to line up car deals, b/c I am in the market for a new car and I guess you can say that I am kind of picky. Wednesday, I had a doctors appointment and my blood pressure was high. (I am 34 weeks pregnant) My midwife told me to go on bedrest and come back on Friday to check my blood pressure again and it went down again. Thank goodness. Listening to my sister, who is a hypochondriac, kind of stressed me out even more. She was telling me that since she had to have her children early b/c of her high blood pressure then I would do the same and that I need to have him at the hopsital. I have been seeing a midwife and chose to have him at a birthcenter. She is pissed at me for that and every time I see her I have to hear about how Midwives don’t know what they are doing, etc. I respect peoples’ opinions but I am come on now. She has been trying to trying to tell me since day 1 that I am stupid for having a midwife. For some reason, my family is not supportive at all for any decision that I make.
My sister also mentioned something along the lines of “So are you done with the lesbian lifestyle since you are pregnant and want to raise your son in a good environment?”. How ignorant can one get?! Don’t get me wrong, I love her to death but sometimes I feel that she just doesn’t know who I am. I get insulted when she talks like that to me b/c of course I don’t see anything wrong with my lifestyle and it’s none of her business nor does what I do pertain to her. Its sad to say, but I know me having my son, I will get every opinion in the world and told what to do by my family on how to raise my son. I life a totally different lifestyle from them all and I am not trying to recruit anyone to my beliefs… I am just trying to live for what I believe in. These are the reasons, I do not come around a lot b/c I get sick of hearing everyones’ two cents especially when not asked for.
Besides all of this, I just need to find a “Peace” of mind and really organize my thoughts and priorities… Which right now are buy more stuff for the baby b/c I know how fast time can fly.
