2008
My First Job
Interesting. Sounds like it should be in a baby book.
Sure, I’m excited about it. Awesome–money coming in just for me. From McDonald’s. But that isn’t the problem…the problem IS is that I’m so damn SAD.
I went job hunting today, and I ended up going to McDonald’s’. Sounds like a great first time job. But, the only reason i did it was because my Dad gave me this “growing up” speech…like, “Tabby, you’re 18 now. You should get job instead of lying around the house all the time.” It’s like he said it because he thinks I’m lazy…maybe I AM lazy. I don’t know.
When my Dad gave me that little speech, I felt so scared about getting a job. I mean, school is school; you make a mistake, and it’s fine–you’re just a kid, you don’t know anything. But a job is different…it’s the REAL world. You screw up, and you can’t ignore it.
I’m so scared that I’ll screw up, and SOMEBODY is going to be disapointed in me.
Kind of like…
I want to be a writer, but I don’t want to set myself up for rejection. I want to get into a good college, but I don’t want to let my parents down by going to the wrong one.
I just want to get this “Life thing” right.







Tabby, you’re so adorable. (not what you wanted to hear, right?)
Life isn’t about getting everything right. Life is about making mistakes, learning from them, so that you can go on to making even bigger mistakes. Seriously.
I think it’s fantastic that you want to get into writing. I did, too, when I was your age. I even majored in journalism from one of the top J-schools in the country (think Peabody Awards). And then life got in the way and I ended up doing every kind of job you can imagine from construction, car rentals, customer service, accounting, computer programming and silversmithing (I was a girl with a torch!).
I got my journalism degree 20 years ago and I’ve only returned to writing in the past few years. But you know what? All those years of bouncing from career to career, job to job, and making mistakes has given me a rich personal history from which to create wonderful stories and complex characters.
I’m not saying you should screw around and not take things seriously. By all means, always do your best. Push yourself to new horizons. But don’t be afraid to take chances and try new things. After all, they say to write what you know. It’s going to take some time to know something. You’re going to have to try things. Some will result in failures. Others will turn into successes. And you never know which they will be.
Trust the process, Tabby. And remember that your worth has nothing to do with what you do for a living or how well you do it. Your worth comes from the love deep within you. Let it shine!
Peace out,
Dharma Kelleher
http://www.dharmakelleher.com