2008
Religious Taboo
I can actually pinpoint the very moment that the thought of God left my subconscious forever. I was sitting on my mom’s neighbor’s couch listening to the Police Chaplain tell me that it was “gods will” and that “god would get me through it” as the police officer attempted to get every detail about my mom i.e birthday, SSN, occupation. I had found my mom dead at age 43. She lived alone and had passed away 2 days before I found her. Still for reasons unknown. I was only 23
I have never really been religious, I’ve always questioned it’s validity and asked for proof. However, when the shit hit the fan I would always find myself saying “god please help me get through this” but on that day, sitting on the arm of the couch and wanting answers, I found myself saying again “god please help me through this” and a little voice in my head (my subconscious, not god) said “who the hell are you talking to. God has never helped you before and he’s not going to help you now”. For the religious fanatics out there I can promise you that it wasn’t the devil speaking (heard that before) but simply my uncanny ability for REASONING!.
I believe in an immortal plane. I believe that our soul has a job to do while it’s here and when that job is complete you will move onto another job. I believe this will continue until we destroy our world.
 We as humans with evolving brains have made humanity painful. We’ve taken a very simple concept and turned it into an emotional waste basket. We let people into our lives and when we’re through with them… or their through with us, they toss us away as if we never mattered leaving behind the tortured hearts we all carry around.
In my opinion, “God and Religion” was created in a time when uncivilized human beings needed civilizing. It was a tool used to scare people into behaving themselves.
There are folks out there who would be murderers if not for their fear of God, there are people out there that would rape, pillage, destroy and riot if there weren’t some all mighty daddy waiting with a heavy hand to banish them to the depths of fiery hell for their wrong doings.Â
I respect every religious freedom and I would never speak ill of any persons religion but this is mine. I don’t believe in god, I don’t believe in religion and I don’t believe in hell. If ever there were a place that resembled hell, this life would be it.
Final thought. Think of all of the horrible things that have happened over the years. You will most undoubtedly find that in some form or another it’s failure or success has been blamed on god. If war is won your god must hate the other side, if a tsunami washes away a village of hardworking people and vacationers, it’s gods doing. I say if all of these things are gods doing… y’all better watch your backs because you’re nothing special. Not if GOD would kill thousands of innocent people/children in his name.
 ”Religion is doing what your told, regardless of what is right. Morality is doing what is right, regardless of what your told”
I’m sorry that you lost your mother, that had to be painful.
As far as religion goes, my beliefs are similar to yours except I have times where I feel like I need to try to believe just in case I am wrong. For instance, when my Grandma was ill and dying, I prayed just in case there was something out there that could save her, but then she died.
Most of the time though, I consider myself to be agnostic.
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