2009
Gender doesn’t mean a thing
If I could live in an ideal world, there wouldn’t be a need to identify oneself with either gender (male or female). This is a topic that is oftentimes confusing to me. I am happy with my biological female anatomy for the most part. When I was little, I thought that I wanted to be a boy, but only because I was socialized to believe that only boys played outside and were allowed to get dirty. I always preferred playing sports with the neighborhood boys over playing dolls with the girls. I have a very distinct memory from my childhood where I was sitting in the car waiting for my mom and I wished so hard that my clit would grow into a penis one day so I could be a boy. I always had crushes on girls in my classes, but it never occured to me that I was a lesbian. I just thought that I was supposed to be a boy so I could act on those crushes.
I didn’t realize that I was really a lesbian until high school when my dad asked me if I was a dyke in a sarcastic manner because I never had any boyfriends. It wasn’t by choice. There were boys that I had crushes on and that I pursued, but they were never reciprocated. Now that I think about it, I am very thankful that I didn’t have any luck with the guys. I could have had many horrible and traumatizing experiences.
I’m currently 25. Some days I feel more feminine while other days I feel more masculine. I flow in between these two genders. I love myself and all my body parts and wouldn’t want to change them.
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this exact “for every girl there is a boy” poster is hung in every classroom at my highschool and in the hallways
i don’ know who put them up but i think one of the english teachers distributed them..