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I wake this morning my toes cold from being uncovered.  My dog had to piss so badly, she was already off of my bed and laying next to my bedroom door. She is so patient. I wish people could be as patient as she is. Shit I wish I could be as patient as she is!

So, I work as a waitress right now. Lets start from the beginning and lets make it quick. (I’ll work on that patience thing later)

I went off to Boarding school in 10th grade and graduated in 2003. From there I went to the University here in NC and could not for the life of me figure out what the hell I wanted to do with my life. So then I quit, got a full time job and stayed with that. My grandfather got really sick (story for another blog) and after he passed, I decided I was going to do what I had been wanting to do… move to NJ to get schooling for Massage Therapy. Once I finished that, I came home and after some tendonitis and knee issues decided I should look into something else. SO I just finished up the CNA 1 (certified nursing assistant) course. I enjoyed that, but still didnt feel like I found something right for me. So here I am. Working as a waitress, trying to figure out what my next move is. The great thing is, is that I take the National Exam for Massage Therapy on Feb 8th. After I take and pass it, which we all know I will, I can then become licensed in the state of NC after an assload of paperwork and business planning.

So waiting tables was not something I thought I could ever do, but I do it great! I enjoy the social part of it. I love meeting new people and it is always nice to meet people who don’t know you who will open up to you. I guess I look at many things a bit differently than most. I don’t believe in A God, but, the best way to explain it is that I believe in God, Buddha, Allah, Brahman etc. I guess my religion is more on nature, life, love, laughter, and relationships. Friends, family. I live not by the words of the Bible, but words of Gandhi, Buddha etc. Its not something I get into debates about. Because I will simply look at you and say, if you must debate your beliefs, and religions, then you must secretly be unsure. That is my own opinion. I know that when I AM something I do not need to debate about it, because all that matters is that I am happy with that part of my life, and that is that. Religion:  ”A sense of meaning and purpose; a sense of self and of a relationship with ‘that which is greater than self”.

ANYWAYS… I find myself in a section of my life that I want to get through, and quick. My current gf whom I love very much lives half way around the world. We met online, but had been talking/talk dating (since we hadn’t met yet) for 10 when she finally was able to come here. We went on an awesome cruise to Honduras, Cayman Islands, Beliez, Mexico and she came to see where I live. But, now she is back living in a whole nother world, and I am stuck here trying to figure my shit out. Like I said in my first Blog she is 20 years older than me. I would have NEVER guessed that!!! She does not look nor act 45! But what matters is that I love her and she makes me happy! We share laughter, love, passion, morals, and support each others decisions.

Well I’m going to go snuggle up in my bed with my dog and try my best to sleep some. Goodnight world. Ciao.