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I grew up in that home where being anything but white and straight was frowned upon, raised by an alcoholic physically verbally and sexually abusive father, I hated all I was and all i was told i had to be. I hated who i was for i thought I was wrong… i had the inner feelings of loving women over men, At 11 I moved away from the abusive lifestyle and moved with an estranged family member… One I had never recalled meeting before… My biological mother. I moved with her and felt more at ease with who i was, but still hid the truth for fear of her rejecting as she did when i was a child. One day she found out the truth and shamefully admitted she too was attracted to women. i felt whole and at peace with who i was for the first time in my life. I finally knew I wasn’t alone and went on the quest to find someone to make me happy.

In my quest to do so I was being abused by those I was acquainted with and have since had two children, I just recently found someone who truly makes me happy, Her name is Casey and she accepts me for who i am and for who i choose to be, she shares lifes treasuring moments with me and accepts my children as hers as well, I feel like the earth holds no bounds on me now, i am free and lesbian and I LOVE it, I feel like I have conquered the world. Well Everything seems so perfect… i kinda wait for it all to crash into a nightmare and slam me back into reality.

On September 18th My then girlfriend proposed to me and we have been happily engaged since, We look forward to journeying through life together being there for one another as we conquer the inevitable taunts and bullying fro those against us.. We are all human, we all are the same when we turn out the lights, why hate me for something that doesn’t even effect you, why treat me like I am any less than you are just because I am different you judge me, but never walked in my shoes, why do you do that to me? I love who i am and i am not in love with every woman in the world so why does my sexuality freak out so many. Why cant gays get married when it doesn’t effect the straight. I just wish our world wasn’t so prejudice against us over stereotypes and hearsay… not every gay or lesbian is out to take over your body and soul, but we ARE entitled to have our own, why should I not live my life happy because of a mortal sin, i would rather live and loved than to never have loved at all.

I don’t care how bad my life has been or how messed up it may become, i am thankful for every moment of my life, for if i could have the choice to change even one millisecond and accepted I may not have turned out to be the person I became. My life has its own destiny and I shall not let anything political, or prejudice stand in my dreams and goals for my lesbian life, i stand proud of who i am and i am here to stand up and say I AM A LESBIAN…. don’t ever deny who you are, it is then that the world thinks we are cowards and will swallow us with stones stand tall and keep your head up and unite with those like us and cause unity. embrace diversity it is all around us…. Most importantly LOVE WHO YOU ARE… DONT CHANGE FOR ANYONE!!!!

Guest Post: Anonymous
Email: raelyn112805@hotmail.com
Location: PA
Age: 23