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About 2 years ago when I was newly single and feeling cabin feverish I took a road trip. I woke up in the middle of the night and decided to travel North East. It was 4am when I left. Needless to say I left somewhat unprepared. Well, I packed enough clothing, toiletries, and money. But I forgot music…AH!!! I thought it would be terrible. To my surprise, it wasn’t. It wasn’t my typical genre. No hip hop. No R&B, not even soul. It was a John Mayer cd. An old girlfriend had left it in my car months before, and I was lucky enough to find it on this day. I had no music other than this cd.

At first I was reluctant to pop it in and deal with it. It took me listenting to the whole album 3 times before I started to really listen. Analyzing the lyrics became a fun game. The next thing I knew I was really listening, and even singing along. . There were a few songs that I really enjoyed. One being “Stop this Train” this song is amazing. You may not get it at first, but close out all distraction, and listen to it. Maybe a few times. It will make sense eventually.

Also “City Love” – to this very day. I have a fond memory of this song. It makes me smile. Everytime it comes on, I remember the good times with an old lover. I know this all sounds silly. But if you have ever taken a trip by yourself and made the sweet happening of only taking one cd, you would totally understand.

I would do it again. Same CD, same road, same feeling. I fell deeper in love with the wonders of what music has to really give. It was me stepping outside of my happy little box, and revealing my inner fan of all genres.

Anyways…the longer I drove, the more I realized I had no idea where I was going. The music was great, but I had to make a decision between Colorado and New Mexico. I chose New Mexico. This will be later argued as a possible mistake, but for now I was being decisive and choosing New Mexico. Just so happens that an ex of mine lived there…the same ex that left the John Mayer CD in my truck. Coincidence?

6 Hours later I ended up in Albuquerque. I found a place on HWY 6 to eat. Literally in the middle of no where. The food was good though.

Shortly after as you all probably know I made the decision to contact my ex. She was actually excited to hear from me. We had ended on good terms, but you never really know how things will be until they are truly over.

Seeing her again was an experience. Not seeing someone for so long allows all these feelings to rush back to you. Whether or not they are real is another story. Seeing her brought good memories of camp fire nights, and exciting mornings. I missed her for those reasons. Really I missed the adventure of meeting new people… Going to a place that I haven’t really been and meeting all of her friends. They were so different than the people out here. It was a whole new experience which is what I needed on this road trip of mine.

In the end I came home a little happier, and in love. With the music, and the adventure. I truly believe that I found myself on a lonely road to New Mexico with John Mayer as my partner in crime. My ex and I still talk on occasion. When she talks of coming out here, I offer her a place to stay. Who knows what would happen then….Probably chaos. Although it felt as if we were meant to be at some point, we are not meant for this time frame. She is wrapped up in her life, and now I am wrapped up in mine. Maybe someday she will drive out to Phoenix and discover the things that I discovered on Highway 6.

I can truly say that I found myself 2 years ago on a desolate highway bound for New Mexico. I learned of a true love for music, and decifering between love and familiarity with my ex lover. Which had a greater impact for me?

For now, the John Mayer cd that she left in my truck, and the adventure of spontaneity…

I’m leaving tomorrow morning. I’m heading Northwest….and only taking 1 CD with me. I’m hoping that I can get the same magic to happen again. This time I won’t be seeing an ex lover. I am going to put myself out there and find the true meaning of adventure. Wish me luck.

Guest post sent in by: Lou
Age: 25
Location: Phoenix
Website: http://fkisking.blogspot.com