2011
How it all came out…
Sent in by: Bo-Pah
Age: 29
Location: PA
Website: http://bo-pah.blogspot.com
I wanted to tell some of my coming out story to help any ladies that I can and let them know if they find themselves in a similar situation, your are not alone.
I always knew I was attracted to females. I just grew up thinking that it was normal and that’s just how it was. Not that I would talk about it or think too much into it, but I was never shy to say if I thought a girl was pretty. Whenever I would watch lesbians on tv, Ellen was the first one for me, I was secretly jealous. Now looking back I realized I was jealous of her freedom.
When I was younger I would have my neighbor friends that I would make out with like it was no big deal but we knew never to talk about in front of adults. As far as I knew a lot of girls did it, it was normal. I could tell the ones that liked it just as much as me, and I could tell the difference between the ones that just went along. Around this time, I’m not quite sure of the age but I know it started somewhere in elementary, at least by second grade. Crazy to think back at it now…I was so young. Still have some issues with that, but none the less, that’s how it was. So the older I got the less and less the girls wanted to mess around, seeing as they started liking boys more and realizing that it was “not right” for us to all mess around. I was attracted to boys too so I started having boyfriends and concentrating more on them. In the back of my head I always wanted more with girls but never got the opportunity.
During my mid teen years I would have make out sessions with girls and one attempted 3 some with a guy involved, but that flopped. I ended up having a child and stayed with the father for several years, then splitting up with him, due to me maturing and him not. I ended up dating a lot, and went through 2 really horrible abusive relationships, and eventually settled with a gentleman who I really cared about and wanted to plan a future with. We moved in together my son called him dad and life was simple. My family was finally happy that I was with someone great. I had a complete family in their eyes and my life couldn’t be any better. (I was always the black sheep of the fam and tried on and off to please my parents, hence settling with the first honorable man that I could stand to be with) Then my adult opportunity to be with a woman came…Before that, I had never as an adult met a lesbian that I was attracted to. Weird I know, but I moved from down south to a small town in Pa, and I mean to each his own, but I’m not attracted to short husky women with buzzed hair. Then after making friends with a coworker and growing close, my attraction to women came out in conversation during break one day. Which then my coworker shared she was with a woman, and that was the moment everything changed. The exact words exchanged were, (me) “I wonder why there are no good looking lesbians here in this town”. (Her), “I dated a girl”. I was still with the same gentleman at the time, who was fine with my sexual desire to be with a woman and gave me the go. To get right to it, she ended hooking me up with her bff who was also a lesbian and it was over. I hung out with her 2 days in a row, nothing major happened really just making out and some touching. It was after the first day I hung out with her I knew. It just came to me and everything made sense. I was a mother f-in Lesbian!
