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Hi…I am writing this more to get this off my chest than anything else. I know I am stupid but I can’t share this with my friends soooo here I am.

I am 24 and a lesbian and I am out at home and with many of my friends. I have been dating this one girl on and off for 3 years now. The problem is it is a long distance relationship. I live in CT and she lives in Cali. That makes things difficult …no doubt, but we have weathered that storm a few times. I will tell you that when we are together there is nothing better. My problem is I am so into her that I can’t think of anything else and I know she loves me but she maintains that she has her own life and she needs her private time. Oh yeah…did I mention she isn’t out at home? Anywayssss lately she refuses to put time aside for me. I mean we still talk but it is haphazard. I have a day job and go to a class at night hopefully winding up with a masters. She works in a family business and has off afternoons and evening but still can’t commit to meeting me to talk anytime. I mean what is wrong with saying I’ll meet you online at 8PM western time? I would be there will bells on but she will just not commit to doing that. To her she thinks of this as a freedom issue…to me I think of it as a commitment issue.

Anywayssss….when we are together it is absolute heaven. She is funny, supportive and cute….did I mention cute? lol

I just don’t understand how going for a jog or playing racquetball instead of taking the time for us to connect makes any sense.

I donno…am I stupid?

Sent in by: Anne
Age: 24
Location: Connecticut